Knowing before knowing
When I started my coaching journey, I didn't really know what to expect.
It was more of a sense. A stirring. Something was up and I couldn't quite name it yet.
I had worked most of my professional life in IT—starting on the business side and growing into different roles over the years. And through all of it, I always had this quiet feeling that something was missing.
I knew it.
But honestly, I never acted, because I didn't know what to do with that sense.
And I never asked for help.
I mean—who could have answered what was missing, when I didn't even have the question yet?
The reasons were never mine
What makes a decision the right one?
I remember sitting at my desk on a Friday, years ago, already dreading Monday. Not because the weekend was too short, but because two days felt like nothing against everything waiting for me when it ended.
I was still in my probation period. Everyone told me to push through. Stick to it for two years, then switch departments. You're secure. You already have a job. You've changed companies too many times. It will look bad on your CV…
Those were the reasons people gave me to stay.
But the reasons were never mine.
Five months in, I came to the office as I did every day, not knowing what the day would bring. I sat down at my desk and decided, enough.
Earth Day - a reflection from the inside out
Rest is Part of Growth
Life fills up fast. I think most of us know and experience this at some point.
There are appointments, school runs, deadlines, grocery lists, and somewhere in between all of that - actual work. We wear so many hats in a single day: Taxi driver, nurse, organiser, cook, listener, scheduler. And often somewhere at the bottom of that list: ourselves.
I know this from my own life. Not as a theory, but as a reality. And I wouldn't want to miss a single thing out of this.
And still, I look outside, take time. At the Rhine meadow near where I live in Cologne / Köln, where I took this photo. And I notice something.
Nature is not rushing.
The wildflowers aren’t rushing. The grass…